Listening with an Open Heart.

Sometimes I go to my room an I lay on my bed and I just stare at the roof, more than 20 thoughts are running.threw my mind! But you know I never take the time to pick out the things that are more important than others. Then days, and maybe even weeks later I have so many emotions built up that it makes hard to even have an average conversation about something honestly important.
   Having an open heart is just as important as having open ears. I mean listening to others and helping them through there rough times is just as important as being able to share your burdens with those whom are willing to listen, the true friends who are in for the long haul! I have a tendancy to keep in the stuff that hurts me the most and the stuff that means the most to my oh so dramatic life! Ha. I love my friends and my family because they have made is very clear to me that they are ALWAYS more than willing to listen to what's on my mind each day! And you know God is there too, foreer and always! But if you fell that you need to talk to someone, I am more than will to listen. Don't hold back, let today be the day you let it out and release the burdens is your life! GOD BLESS YOU ALL(: Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  With love. (:

Standards!

  So I am simply a girl. A girl that has feelings; a girl that wants to feel like she belongs to something. A girl that doesn't wanna be lead on or teased or told I'm special when truly that's not someones true feelings.
    My life has changes drastically in the past few months, and I am trying to take life by the horns and take full advantage of the chances I get! I use to believe that having a "boyfriend" would make my life 'perfect' no matter what. Partially because I am not the type of girl that guys jump for and I'm not the type of girl that ALWAYS had a guy around my arm. It took while for me to realize that I was/am insane! Guys don't and wont ever make me who I am, I am a daughter of God and he is the only Man I have to live up to! I will admit building a relationship with a guy that is based on the love of God would be magnificent! But that doesn't mean you or I should lower our standards for any man! Always know that God loves you more then any of us can ever understand. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

With love. (:

The Right Connection!

Today was a really big day for me; I reassured my connection with God! I do my best not to give advice that I personal have a hard time taking my self, but I think that when you put yourself in the position to be filled with the Holy Spirt of God then you are doing pretty good! I did that today, and I am feeling great! The Lord can do amazing things threw you and me and allowing your heart to be open to that connection with God is only a choice you can make for yourself. I made the decison to walk with my savior forever to the best of my ability. Not forgetting that I can never be perfect, yet trying to become the best me I can be living threw him. Are you ready to turn your life to Jesus? Smile, tomorrow is another day! God loves!

    Love always. (:

Imperfection!

  Let's just take a wild jump out there and say, I'm not perfect! Haha, I'm just kidding about the wild jump part, but in no way am I anywhere close to perfect because I'm human! No human living on this earth is perfect so no worries! But I think that most people believe that they compare themselves to those who are "perfect!" First of all, each of us is unique is of own personal ways, no comparison needed! Second of all, have you ever taken the time to think about who that person is, because if so you could have come to the realization that there is no one! Don't ever feel like you aren't perfect because no matter what the is one man who will always love you no matter what happens! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   Love always. (:

You can change the world!

So I am just one person. I am just me. And so when I see things that I would love to do but it feels so hard for just one person and a teenager at that. But you know what, I think I've finall put that nonsense behind me. I want to do something big; I want to do something that can impact a large group of people. And I'm sure that I am not the only one! So today as you read this I hope it gives you the power and the focus to do something you may have never even thought you could achieve! You are one person, and who knows.. you could change the world. You could be the one, don't hold back, make a change. Start small if that's what needs to be done. We can make a difference today! I think it's my turn to step up too! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  With love. (:

Unknown.

  Being the person who has the voice that stands out in a crowd is someone that I somewhat strive to be. It's not that I try to be the center of attention, but I want to be the voice that people look to when in doubt. I love to help people and to solve problems. And yes, somethines it may seem like I want all the attention but really that's not what I'm trying to do. Sometimes I wonder if other people try to to the things I do, because I'm not personal with everyone if that makes sense. I mean not everyone is openbto come talk to me when they may need something or even talk to me at all. I know that that there is a few people that I see around school that'd I'd like to talk to but would be "nervous" too. I think for me it has to do with judgement and intimidation. I don't like too be looked down upon by other people! But anyway, I just hope that people know I would love to really help make a difference in their lives if that need it! I'm always listening to those whom take the time to listen to me every once in a while! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

A Balancing Act!

  Right now I have so many things that I am involved in and stuff that I play you know. Coaching a volleyball team, chruch softball team, school clubs, practicing for a select sofball tryout, many other things. I'm sure that I am not the only person with a ton if things on my plate but you know even though I do all of the things I have to learn to put God first ALWAYS! Learning to do this is definitely a challenge, but being a daughter of Christ something I have to do! So think reall hard, how is your life balanced? Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

It's a crush!

   Wow I haven't blogged in what seems like forever. But I think I have a great topic for tonight!
    So it's easy for us to all admit that we've all had a crush on someone before, most of us more that one person! Crush is a weird word to me, it kind of seems a little immature in a weird way. Although, we may had different opinions on the word I think that at my age that when you like someone it shouldn't be like a "school girl crush." Playing around with people feelings it harsh and ridiclous. For example: saying Monday you like Cole and Wednesday you are dating Bill. That is totally not fair to the guys heart that just got played. I'm not saying run-off and get married, it's not that serious but don't be the guy/girl that everyone knows is just going to end up hurtig them. Don't be that guy! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

 
      With love. (:
   

Obligated!

   Have you ever feltkue you have to say yes to something because maybe you feel bad? I definitely have! For example, sometimes I just feel like I have to be somewhere or I'll be counted as a jerk. That's kinda confusing but I just feel obligated to help other people out when it might not necessarily be "my job." There is a difference in brig there from your real friends and being and being a pitty friend. No one wants to find out that someone is just being their friend out of pitty. And if you realy care about a person then you should be there real friend and make sure that if you tell them you're gonna do something you don't pill out of your obligations! A promise is a promise! And NEVER break a pinky promise! Haha. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

It's Usually Not Worth It!

    Have you ever been in a situation where you want to blurt something out so bad but you know there could be consequences? Believe me I know ai sure have! Its just like some people just push certin buttons, if you know what I mean. But the thug is I really had to think about what I am about to say.. is it really worth hurting someone else even if it makes you "cool" with your other friends!
      Obviously, doing something wrong usually has a negative outcome, but calling another peron out for somethig that you feel is there "fault" is wrong. I know i am DEFINITELY NOT perfect. But I'm working on my true faults. Are you? If not do you think it's time for a change..? Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

Respect!

   Respect is something that my parents tought me at a very young again and I guess I just figured eeryone else's parents had too! But never asume..
   Havig respect for another person is something that everyone should do! It's the "golden rule," even if it may be corney it's true. Treat others the way YOU wanted to be treated. And respect falls in will bullying. Bullying is a horrifying thing and you never know if that kid you just yelled at just left home where his mom or dad screams in his face everyday! You never know if that girl you just pushed down gets hit everydy she goes home. Think before you act, you don't wanna be the reason someone decideds to end his or her own life. Please stop the bullying; begin the respect! You could be the one to make a change! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

R.I.P. Travis Sitzman! You will be missed!

Bad Days Are The Worst!

   Have you ever had a really, really bad day? If you haven't, oh how I wish I was in your position! But anyways today I had a majorly hard day! It was like every little thing that happened I took it really harshly! And I felt like everyone around me was tryin to make me mad, like they made some kind of announcement about it! I'm crazy, I know. But when it came down to it I had a couple really good friends that were there for me even thoug I wasn't vein the nicest person I could be. And I realized the real, true friends are hard to come by these days. So if you have them, hang on to them! I was great appreciative when it all.came down to it. Think hard, are your friends true friends? Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

Ah, Sundays!

  Have you ever had one of those days where you just lay around the house doing NOTHING! I had one of those days today, and I did a lit if thinking today. I do my best thinking when I'm laying on the couch! Haha.
   Today, I thought how different would my life be if I had a crazy amazing talent and was lived by the world! You have to admit being famous sounds pretty awesome, making other people happy doing somethig you love! Pretty great, but it seems like it's not an easy job. The thing is though the Lord blessed me with so many talents! He blessed us all with a remarkable amount of talents you know! They may not be Justin Bieber singing voices or Usher dancing moves but they are all great gifts! Don't ever think you aren't special, who ever tell you otherwise is lying! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  
    With love. (:

Not again..

   Being let down is one of those things that just happens sometimes. But the sad thing is for some people it just happens way to often. I would say that it happens to me all the time, but it does happen quite a bit. And you know it sucks, no one likes getting their hopes up for something they want so badly. No ones perfect, but don't make promises you can't keep.
    When you feel like you are that one single girl or guy whose geting your hopes up to often, focus on reality. Its hard, believe me I know. But it's better than putting yourself in a vulnerable situation. Stay happy! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  
    With love. (:

It happens to everyone!

  For me, today was a great day! I kept my head high and didn't let drama get to me! I allowed myself to have fun and enjoy the day the Lord blesseme with. But sadly there was a slight problem, I embaressed myself infront of someone I really wished I hadn't. Haha, "wink wink!" But the thing was he played it cool, as did I of course! I really didn't think that I could recover from a moment like the one I endured. But the thing is I was so, so very wrong! He was exceping of my embarrassing moment.. haha. But what I'm tryin to say is when something unexpected happen to you in a moment if weakness you don't have to blow it out of purportion, like I normally do.. but I'm getting way better. You know that being there for someone you care about when they feel vulnerable may just be life saving. Never feel like in that moment when you tripped down the stairs will "make or break you rep." Everyone is gonna forget about it in a good 15 minutes. Embarrassing moments happen to EVERYONE! Haha. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

Ehh, Don't Say It!

  Obviously we are all completely different people, with different opinions on everything! So a few of my friends and I have had and ongoing problem with a couple of other girls and today a few thin were said that kinda took the situation a little farther then it should have been taken. And I realized that the thing that were said weren't right, and we honestly had no right to say them. But the way the other girls handeled the situation was also unexceptable. And tomorrow I will show them that I am and will continue to be the bigger person. It all goes back to the think be for you talk thing; doing and saying what your peers say isn't always the best idea. Just remember that in God's eyes we are all equals so no one is any better then the girl or guy standing right next go them!
    I really have been trying to be a better peron and trying to treat other people better. Being the bigger person in a "fight" isn't my natural personality. Honestly, I'm usually the one that you have to take down screaming and fightin. One time if just biting your tounge and admitting you can just let this one go could start something good in your life! Haha. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

Take a Breather!

    Sundays are supposed to be the day of rest! Like it's the day you use to recollect yourself from the log week, and to prepare yourself for the week to come! But you know it's the twenty-first centery and no one really every has time to just rest anymore, or atleast my family doesn't. But today I really felt like everyone I talked to finally got a chance to rest. And I got a chance to just hangout with my sisters and talked to a few old friends who I really didn't connect with much anymore. The thing is in the free time I had I actually sat and listened to what other people had to say. My sister has herself a new "friend" and she is really fond of her new "friend." And I didn't know that till I really talked to her about it! It was a hilarious conversation, so funny!
    You know if you really take the time to put yourself on the back-burnner for a little while I'm sure there is someone right under your nose who would love to talk to you about something they may be struggling with or excited about! And you never know, it may be something that seems like nothing to you but everything to them. The fact that you are listening to their storie, whatever it may be, could mean the world to them. I'm gonna try harder to not always be the speaker.You should try too! Smile, tomorrow is another day!


    With love. (:

Debbie Downer!

You know there is always times when we feel like we are always being promised things that never happen. But you know that eventually sometimes things may just work out. Um I feel like that happenes yo me a lot, the being promised things and then getting let down. And its not always by the same person, it's a veriety of different people that I have different "connections" with. Like friend, sister you know.. But what I do is try to imagine the possibility of it happening or not happening. So then if it does happen I'm excited and if it doesn't then ehh, so be it. The sad thing is sometimes I'm a negitive thinker and thing of the worst possible thing just to get myself out of a bad situation. And I guess it's not a completely terrible thing, I don't think, but it kinda brings me down. So I've been trying to keep myself more upbeat and think happy and fun! And if you just happen to be one of those people that think of the glass half empty try to change your way of thinking just a little bit! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

     With love. (:

I'm listening!

So today I went to visit some family I haven't seen in quite a while and I had some family come who I see all the time. And um I was informed that a lot of my family accutally reads my blog! Honestly, I was surprised because I didn't really think that cared about half the stuff I said so I figured, "nahh, they wont read it." Oh, I was wrong. I felt like the words coming out of mu mouth relly weren't that importnt and that mG be the case sometime but.. haha. But really, you'd be surprised by how may people listen to you even when you may "have your backed turned." No matter how smart or how dumb or how witty or how immature or how pointless you may think something to say may be, believe me 98% of the time someone is always listening. So that kind of puts you in the position of ALWAYS THINK BEFORE YOU SPEEK! Haha, I struggle with that just a much as the next person! But it's alright! And I'm always up for a good talk! Smile, tomorrow's another day!

With love. (:

Over the deep end; Spring Break!

   So, so far my spring break has been intresting you may say. In 2 days I have had about a total of 8 hours of sleep! It's pretty crazy how fast things changed. You know, it's so weird because I'm not really that tired. Also in the past few days I have been loaded with so much drama and aggervation (I think that's how you spell it). Which isn't a very uncommon thing in my life right now, but it just kind of seems like lately things have just been blown out of porportion so easily. And believe me I'm not perfect, I am guilty of  "overdramitizing" somtimes; I don't think I'm that bad about it though. Praying has really help lately, with God's help for sure! I just think that no matter how big any situation may be most of the time it doesn't have to be as big of a deal as we make it sometimes. And I'm not say that everyone always just completely goes off the deep end every time, but I guess I'm saying um just think before you talk.
  For me it's like my attitude I have towards situations when I don't like the ending result. Wow, I sounded really smart when I said that! Haha, but I hope you understand what I'm saying. Don't worry, no one is perfect, not even the person you may think have everything! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

Just Have Laugh!

So today, spent ALL DAY with my family. It was intresting, haha. Um, I met this guy and when I went to talk to him my family embaressed me. But you know it was one of the funniest experieces of my life ohonestly! Even though my family is so outrageous most of the time, I love them. And if you just want to just totally write your family off for little pranks, learn to just laugh and have a good time. I realized it was way better if I jst let everyone have their moment. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  With love. (:

Love Em!

So relationships, what a topic huh? I sure do think so. Ha. Well right now I feel like relationships are so tricky and are something that you have to work for. And I guess that's obvious to some people, but not for everyone you know. So, everyone can admit that at one point they have wanted a boyfriend or girlfriend! Don't deny it, haha. I mean, I know I sure have. To me having a boyfriend ment having someone tell you your beautiful and that they love being around you. Hearing those things just sounds great you know, but that's truly not what it's all about. It plays a part in they way you feel about a person for sure. I guess what I'm trying to say is no matter how nice or sweet somone may seem don't just dive in head first. Take your time, if he truly likes you he won't mind waiting. Find you an honestly great guy! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

Think Positive!

So today I visited someone very much, who doesn't have much time left in her life. A few months ago she was informed she had cancer. Sadly it got really bad, really quick. Today, when I kissed her goodbye it mad me cry because didn't know if that could of been the last time that I may have the chance so do something so simple. But I realized that she is in so much pain, and when she is with God that won't be the case!! Even though things just won't be the same without her. What I am trying to say is death may be scary, but it's not a scary thing. Kinda a weird thing to think about. But losing someone is a very hard thing,  I know from personal experience! And if anyone wants to know how I overcame all tje crazy emotions, we can trade stories. Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

Always think!

So everyday, I kinda feel like I'm the odd one out. Not like with friends and stuff but in my own house. Like my mom and dad ALWAYS take my sibilings's sides. It's one of the most exausting things ever! But most of time I just ignore everyone or just go to my room. The best way to do things, I think, is to avoid an argument that you just might regret later. I do have a slight tendency in just blurting something out before I think about it. It's a real bad habit! But I'm working on it, and I hope that no one else feels too left out. If so I'm always up for a good conversation! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With love. (:

154 days..

So it's been a great weekend I think. But today marked 154 days for me. It's been 154 days since my uncle passed away, we went to a ceremony that honored him and a lot of other wornderful people that passed and donated tissue and/or organs. It was really nice, you got to go and light a candel and they gave you a flower and other great stuff. Even though it was still hard to face the fact that on Earth I won't physically see him again. But honestly how much better does Heaven sound! I realized that no matter what he's never far. Don't think that just because you can't accutally see there body doesn't mean they left you. Same with God, he never has and never will leave us alone. Losing someone you love us always hard but we will over come by knowing they're always with us. (And not in a creepy way, haha.) Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With love. (:

Let it out!

       So I didn't get a chance to blog yesterday, kind of a bumme since blogging is my way of sharing my thoughts without have to keep a diary or journal. I mean if I wanted to talk to my mom and dad that wouldn't be a problem; sometimes I just think that they are just going to give one of those generic answers. For example: "Well sweetheart people are mean sometimes and we just need to pray for them." or "The reason other people are mean to you is just because it makes them feel better." And I'm sure a lot of yo haven't heard those before and truly I have't since like 6th grade. Haha, but I could't think of anything else. Anyways. around my friends I;malways the one that everyone comes to, and the one who really one to go too. I don't carry a lot of drama or have a TON of problems but you know having someone there tht you know you can call or text anytime really ensures the feeling that you not alone. God bless my best friends! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

    With Love. (: 

A strong attitude!

So today, I actually had a very good day! It was really weird because I kind of felt like a completely new person when I got up this morning, so weird. I think I really, truly learned the purpose of each day is a new day. And that the mood thay I'm in doesn't only effect my but my family and my friends, my teachers and classmates. They all have to deal with me at least 5 days a week, God bless them! Haha. But really have you ever taken a second to look at how the things you do and say make an empression of EVERY person around you. Before now, I can promise you I sure didn't. It's probably weird to a lot of you that I have like some kind of life revalation everyday but I think and feel this stuff over time. I'm really not a freak, or I hope not. Ha. I hope every one has a great day tomorrow! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  With love. (:

What do you see..?

      So Mondays suck! We all know that, but today I think it was taken to a whole knew level. This happened because it was so cold! Haha. But you know I made the best of my day. The point I'm trying to make is kind of like avoiding your weaknesses in a real way. I try not to let other people see the pain or the struggles that are within me. I feel like if no matter what if others see the thing that I don't want them to see then they will see me a completely different peron. I know that we've always been taught to see the deeper part of people, as in see what is in the inside and not just the physical part. The quote "don't judge a book by its cover," is something I think most of us grew up hearing! And a lot of my peers, myself included, seem to have a really tough time with that specific thing, it's a person challenge we all deal with.
     But back to what I was saying, I hate letting people know when I'm really hurting or when I'm sad or anything else because dumpping my problems on onther people is so not what I wanna do. People deal with me enough of the time, telling them ALL about my life is so not anything I ever wanna do. But I love hearing other people talk, I truly am a great listener or I try to be anyway! I love helping other people; it really is something I love doing. If anyone ever needs anything, I'm hear. Ask for my e-mail and I will be glad to lend some help in anyway I can. But um, I really think that I am wrong in not sharing my feelings sometimes. I know that constantly wearing my feelings on my sleeve just isn't my true personality. But if you are a person who does do that it isn't bad by any means, just don't let the words of others bring you down! I'm alwyas here! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

  With Love. (:

It takes a few tries!

     So we all have crushes weather it's a girl or a guy, but crushes or flings never last too long. You know not too long ago I realized that the perfect guy doesn't exist. But the thing is waiting around for the perfect person to show uo or just walk into you life only happen for a very small percent of people. I think putting myself out in there does make things really awkward but I know that if I could have a chance with an amazing guy then maybe, just maybe it's worth it. You know one of the scary things is the possibility of getting hurt, that would really suck. But it takes a few time of getting hurt till things go your way. I am not the coolest person with the guys but I'm not just gonna let a little competition run me away from anything I strive for. So I hoe that if you really want something (or someone, haha) don't give up! Smile, tomorrow is another day!

   With Love. (:

Saturdays!

So we all have different views on what we would call a perfect Saturday or a perfect day at all. But you know today was an alright day, I have a lot on my plate right now but nothing to crazy! No schedule like Justin Bieber's schedule, haha. But I think my perfect or as close as perfect can get day would be hqnging out with my friend and family having a cookout in the backyard. It would be a cool summer day, swimming and maybe hanging out with a really nice guy, a guy who I know would never let me down. That would be the best day a girl like me could think of, ahh what's you perfect day? Smile, tomorrow is another day!
     
   With Love. (:

Weekdays to the Weekend!

So it's been a long week, but it's Saturday! Finally! This week was a hard week for me; some people really just don't like me. And I mean I know that you can't like everyone but I was really singled out a few times! It's kind of crazy but I'm not going to let the things other people say hurt me! I am stronger than that, we are al stronger tha that. I am determined to be the bigger person, sometimes it's really really hard but it's something that has to happen you know. Ahh, it's crazy! Haha. Have a greay weeked. Smile, tomorrow is another day!
 
   With love. (:

The Day after Valentines, ehh.

        So even though I didn't have a "Valentine" this year, I still had a pretty good day! And the day after was alright I guess. That's the day every girl wheres there new jewelery or whatever there gift may have been, ugh bummer for the single girls and guys out there.
        The funny thing was I finally realized that girls aren't the only people who hate being single that day. I mean I always kinda knew it but I guess I never really connected the dots. All those famous people have it good and bad that day. It's good that they kinda have just about anyone they want, but they don't want to let the other people down who look up to them, so they don't want to pick favorites. I don't know from experience, but you know maybe one day I might. Highly doubt it, but as Justin Bieber says, "Never say never." Haha. I hope that everyone had the best Valentines Day they could. Smile, tomorrow is another day!
 
   With Love. (:

The Beginning.

    Starting a blog is something that I think will allow my to talk about my life experiences and be able to see the comments about other's stories also. So it's time for me to start my story, and hear all of yours! Smile, tomorrow is another day!